Deja Vu

The results are in and there is NO evidence of the C-word in my bones, organs or elsewhere in the chest wall!! Thank you for the positive vibes and prayers that got me through this weekend!  I seriously have not felt that much anxiety as I did the 48 hours I waited for those test results. Last night after our mid-afternoon Mothers Day dinner, I decided to retire the phone as I was looking at it to often, reading BS on-line that was adding to the stress as well as looking at MyChart even though there was nothing new. I fell asleep on the couch and awoke to the hubs telling me to go to bed @11ish. THEN I decide to look at my phone again and BAM! The Mother’s Day gift I was waiting for arrived. Two more test results full of doctor jargon that led to the glorious words of “no signs of distant malignancy or metastatic disease”. I’ve often been guilty of reading the last page of a book before actually finishing it, therefore I had ZERO hesitation to scroll down to the “impression” portion of the report in hopes of reading good news. Yes, it was the longest 1/2 second of my life and probably the longest minute of Jimmy’s life as I read to myself quietly. Although we’ve been here before, this waiting game was much worse. At times I had myself mentally prepared to be told the worse, then 5 minutes later I was reminding myself how invincible I am. Talk about a Mind-F!

So, what’s next you ask? Well, I have surgery (lumpectomy) May 24th. Radiation to follow 4 weeks after, unless oncologist has good argument for doing chemo again. If chemo is determined to be advantageous, it will occur prior to radiation.

Stay tuned…