My Cup Runneth Over…

I spent 1/2 the day sleeping again but per the previous chemo cycles I’m basically back to me and of course after days of sleep back to being a night owl. I find it odd that my posts were more frequent when I was in the most pain or pinned down more after recovering surgeries. Maybe what I thought was the toughest part mentally really was just physical. I suppose I’m a champ at post-surgery pain. It’s a bit more predictable. You’re in hell pain at first, then it gets better and better until it’s finally gone. Well, the frustration of late is the lingering pain on my right chest. I can’t tell if it’s nerve or muscular, but it’s definitely annoying and I’m hoping it’s maybe related to the port and will go away when the port is gone. Maybe it’s a pinched nerve??‍♀️ I just know that the lingering pain wares on the mind more.

Its hard to write and publish when the words are a bit on the whiney side and the emotion is negative, but I’m forcing myself. I set out to document my journey for myself and others so I will continue to force myself when it’s honestly the last thing I want to do in that moment sometimes. Since Debbie Downer isn’t fun for any of us, I’m going to now transition to the positive & what I get to look forward to as well as what was positive this past weekend when I was fighting off the dooms & glooms.

First the positive flashback:

1. Gina’s team won the silver bracket again in their tournament. Although I didn’t get to watch in person, technology gave me the next best thing – periscope (thanks Bill)! The day started off rough in their pool play with multiple losses but they bounced back to win their bracket for the second time in a row. If I were coaching I’d encourage them to forget the past and push to win, therefore it’s time I do the same. Those U11’s inspire me to bounce back from my not-so-fab days and push through as well.

2. We spent time with my nephews & my in-laws which was very nice! The boys are beyond cute and I love how Styles (oldest Sanfillipo nephew) loves his Auntie Ne-Ne. I’m confident Brayson will follow suit (ha) but for now he’s only able to offer smiles. Although I don’t like to see Styles sad, I secretly love how he doesn’t want to leave us. The poor kids were a snotty mess though coming into our cold weather from Florida.

Now – moving forward:

1. Pilates Reformer – I’m back at Pilates just once a week but am soooo happy about it. Tomorrow I get to introduce Maria to it as well and hope she enjoys it as much as I do. I went last week and was happy to still have some flexibility but am miles away from where I left off before the c-word crashed into my life. Peak Human Performace in Plain City is the place & has some of my favorite health enthusiasts ever! They sent me a card after my surgery with encouragement that I’ve actually had posted next to my mirror in our master bath to remind me to get back there at some point. I found Peak during Maria’s volleyball training when she was 12 and even if I tried to stay away, I eventually worked my way back there. Why? Because they’re amazing and inspirational and welcoming. Amy even encouraged me to go hatless during my session which was a bit stressful, yet empowering simultaneously.

2. St. Patty’s Day/Bday celebration – we get to celebrate our friends birthday while bouncing around town St. Patty’s weekend. After the overwhelming love for the Blue wig, I’m teetering with the notion of getting a green wig. We’ll start the day with the girls walking in the Parade with our old sitter which they always enjoy!☘️

So it appears the good more than out-ways the bad and I THANK YOU ALL for the encouraging words and being a part of my journey. This blog has helped me a ton and a huge part of that is all of you that continue to read and support me. My Cup Runneth Over?